Artistic agonies should be burned with the angst

Artistic agonies should be burned with the angst

Dancing divaThis week I’ve been agonising over something. And It’s something I shouldn’t be agonising over at all. I’ve been an artist all my life and have painted some incredible paintings. And this week I’ve felt stuck and trapped,  and art shouldn’t be like that, certainly not my sort of art. It should be liberating and uplifting and fun, and I should want to be creating all the time.

Yesterday I had lunch with my good friend Stuart Haywood and his lovely wife. I’ve not seen them for a while and it was good to catch up and hear what they’ve been up to. I’ve done a lot of artwork for Stuart in the few years that I’ve known him, and I know how much of a positive change I’ve made to his life.  As we talked about their forthcoming holiday, gardening, people in our lives and the usual subjects over a leisurely lunch, I mentioned briefly my annoyance in myself for having put a lot of expectation into ONE thing happening and found out this week that it hadn’t. And realised as I said it that it sounded ridiculous. You can’t get caught up in the negativity of one thing, just because one thing didn’t go the way you wanted it to. We all get knockbacks. Its part of life.

Creativity and art should be fun. Art for art’s sake. Infact, its not the art that’s been the problem at all, it’s the place to sell it that I’ve been stuck on. Gallery, or online?  Or both? Or neither? And I’ve let myself become introverted over it, instead of flying high I’ve felt my wings have been clipped. Another persons water has momentarily extinguished my flame. But I shall nurture it, and let it burn bright again, fed by the air of success, creativity, talent, and a desire to communicate. Back in the flow that feeds my soul…….

I've been an artist all of my life, and my paintings now hang on walls in Europe, USA and Canada. I'm working on getting them on the other continents! My wide range of artwork has been exhibited nearer to home in the East Midlands, with the Guild of Erotic Artists at Beaumont Hall Studios in Hertfordshire, and at "Erotica", Olympia, London. I have also been featured alongside my work in the Guild of Erotic Artists book (volume 2). I love to create dramatic interest in my pictures, whether it’s to paint an unusual landscape, or just to utilise dramatic lighting in my figure drawings or strong colour in my animal portraits. Delighting in the spontaneous tendencies of watercolour adds an interesting and distinctive look to my paintings, some of which are purposefully ambiguous, enabling the viewer to use their own interpretation of my artwork. I also love to hide images, and humour within my paintings, whether it’s a secret message, or an erotic couple hidden within a landscape, or even an erotic landscape where the couple are camouflaged as the features of the land itself. I am equally happy painting in oils, acrylics or watercolours and love to draw with pencil or ink. I have also developed the very effective method of drawing using white pencil on black card which creates dramatic pictures by just picking out where the light catches the body and leaving the rest of the image to the imagination, in darkness. I can also utilise many different styles, whether it is realistic, abstract, surrealistic, erotic, fantasy or camouflage art where something is hidden within the painting. I'm just passionate about my art, whatever I paint! But, it doesn't matter how many landscapes or pet portraits I paint, its always the erotic stuff that people are interested in! I started blogging to share some of the strange conversations I have with the people I meet. But its evolved into far more than that now.

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