Sometimes things that you think are within your grasp are taken away from you. Sometimes it takes you by surprise and sometimes its out of your power no matter how much you think you’re doing the right thing to get it. So, this was the case last year when I went to the local farm shop and talked with the owner about hanging some of my paintings there. She was keen on the idea, liked my art very much, had even been actively looking for a local artist to hang some paintings and was all for it. She just needed to hang some picture hooks. I went back week after week and the hooks weren’t up but were going to be – imminently! Then we had the problem with “insurance” and the insurance company not being happy with paintings with glass hanging on the wall because of children running around and maybe harming themselves. So it was decided that it was better not to have my paintings, and they’d do without artwork. Fair enough. And funnily enough, a few weeks ago when I went they had some artwork on the wall. Ok, it wasn’t for sale, and was possibly screwed to the wall, but it wasn’t my artwork (neither was it as good as my artwork!). So, I shrugged it off, and got on with other things. There wasn’t much else I could do.
This week something else was taken away that I thought was a “given”. My spiritual healer friend has decided that she doesn’t want her self-help book on unicorns illustrated now. The book has been two years in the writing, has only been completed recently, and we have on various occasions discussed me illustrating it for her. We were both looking forward to the creative partnership of her words and my images being published. But she now feels that the book doesn’t need illustrating. Fair enough. It’s her book and for her to make the decision. And its not for me to argue the point (too much!) – she is my closest friend, and will remain so, so we’re not going to fall out over it. I know she’s not comfortable with some of the erotic artwork I do sitting against “spiritual” images. But I paint so many varied subjects, so many different things, and maybe that’s part of the problem. I do TOO much to fit into a niche. I know I’m good at what I do, and others like what I do, and my art sells. But I don’t fit into a title – I do erotic art, but I’m more than “just” an Erotic Artist”. I also “do” landscapes, and fantasy, cats, people, and figures. All I want to do is paint pictures and sell them. The subject matter is VAST.
But, this has also got me thinking – there is no reason why I can’t still paint the unicorn pictures I have been planning in my head. There is no reason why the pictures won’t make beautiful paintings, that people may want to buy, there is no reason why I may not at some point write a book – about my art, for instance, that will have a chapter on unicorns, a chapter on the fantasy fannies, a chapter on landscapes, one on tigers, one on mermaids, one on erotic art, one on surreal art, one on erotic landscapes, etc etc. I have enough subject matter to write a book already, and I enjoy the writing process very much. And it seems to be well accepted in return. I plan at some point in the future to do it. Not now, and maybe not for a few years, but its on the mental “to do” list.
So, I can only be true to myself – and paint what inspires me. Whatever it is. And listen to what other people ask me to paint for them. Its all fantasy, one way or another.
MMm…….. Maybe I should retitle myself “Fantasy Artist”!!!! 🙂