The journey back

The journey there was buoyant, full of jollity, of hopes, full of promise, and smiles.

The journey back was more poignant, quieter, and more introverted.  Not depressed you understand, just more reflective.

Because I was bringing back as many paintings as I’d taken. Not one had been sold, and I had taken a large variety of artwork. I had taken artwork starting at £40 rising up to almost £1,000. Something for everyone, in both the type of artwork and the pricing of it.

The reflection and inner searching helped me make a decision.

I’m not doing that again.

I am not exhibiting in places that don’t virtually guarantee that I make some sales.

Because that’s what I’m after.

I know that a large part of exhibiting is to show the world. I’m fully aware of that. I know that when you exhibit you make contacts, network, and promote yourself. That’s a large part of it too. I understand that. I know how it works.

But, I need the sales.

I need to make a living.

And this exhibition so far has cost me, both in time and petrol.

Now, don’t get me wrong, I love Sh! I love their stores and where they are situated, both in Hoxton and Portobello. I love the fact they are run by women, for women. I love their open friendliness, and their positive attitude towards sex. I love everything they are. And I am so pleased that I have exhibited there, in their stores. And I know that the people who went to view my art thought it was great, and loved it.

 But, I still need the sales.

Just one, would have been enough.

So, next time, its gonna be somewhere where I’m going to get some sales. And I know times are hard, and people don’t have the wherewithall to spend on art as much as they did.

But, my problem is, that it curtails my creativity when I don’t sell my paintings.

Because, you think, what’s the fucking point? What’s the point of painting, of exhibiting, of spending money, for no sales?

And, I think, what’s the point of painting another painting when I haven’t sold the last ones?

But, it also makes me more focused too.

Of finding the right places NEXT TIME.

Because I need to paint more pictures, I’ve got soooo many inside me still.

Goddesses of the divine feminine

I've been an artist all of my life, and my paintings now hang on walls in Europe, USA and Canada. I'm working on getting them on the other continents! My wide range of artwork has been exhibited nearer to home in the East Midlands, with the Guild of Erotic Artists at Beaumont Hall Studios in Hertfordshire, and at "Erotica", Olympia, London. I have also been featured alongside my work in the Guild of Erotic Artists book (volume 2). I love to create dramatic interest in my pictures, whether it’s to paint an unusual landscape, or just to utilise dramatic lighting in my figure drawings or strong colour in my animal portraits. Delighting in the spontaneous tendencies of watercolour adds an interesting and distinctive look to my paintings, some of which are purposefully ambiguous, enabling the viewer to use their own interpretation of my artwork. I also love to hide images, and humour within my paintings, whether it’s a secret message, or an erotic couple hidden within a landscape, or even an erotic landscape where the couple are camouflaged as the features of the land itself. I am equally happy painting in oils, acrylics or watercolours and love to draw with pencil or ink. I have also developed the very effective method of drawing using white pencil on black card which creates dramatic pictures by just picking out where the light catches the body and leaving the rest of the image to the imagination, in darkness. I can also utilise many different styles, whether it is realistic, abstract, surrealistic, erotic, fantasy or camouflage art where something is hidden within the painting. I'm just passionate about my art, whatever I paint! But, it doesn't matter how many landscapes or pet portraits I paint, its always the erotic stuff that people are interested in! I started blogging to share some of the strange conversations I have with the people I meet. But its evolved into far more than that now.

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