She’s gone.

Out of my life.

I’ll probably never see her again. So, that’s it – its final. Finished!! And I’m missing her already. She’s been such a large part of me, and my life, even for the short time I knew her. But, she was mine, then. And I suppose, still is. And always will be, even though she’s gone to live with another woman, in another country, on another continent. Gone. And I miss her. I loved her sooooooo much. I know I’ll always love her. She’s touched my soul and heart so deeply, with her ageless beauty, so I know I won’t forget her. How could I? But, she belongs elsewhere. With someone else. I cannot keep her by my side. And I hope she’ll be loved there as much as she was here. Loved and cherished. That’s what she deserves. Because she was meant to be there, with the other woman. I understand that, and I accept that.


I still have the other one.

The twin. The twin that is as close to the other as makes no difference. And she is here with me still. She belongs to me. And that is where she will stay. In my life. Loved my me, daily. Looked at, admired, cherished, adored.

And hung on my wall.

Whilst the other goes to America, to be hung on another wall.

“Living Flame” – I really love her!!!!!! 🙂

I've been an artist all of my life, and my paintings now hang on walls in Europe, USA and Canada. I'm working on getting them on the other continents! My wide range of artwork has been exhibited nearer to home in the East Midlands, with the Guild of Erotic Artists at Beaumont Hall Studios in Hertfordshire, and at "Erotica", Olympia, London. I have also been featured alongside my work in the Guild of Erotic Artists book (volume 2). I love to create dramatic interest in my pictures, whether it’s to paint an unusual landscape, or just to utilise dramatic lighting in my figure drawings or strong colour in my animal portraits. Delighting in the spontaneous tendencies of watercolour adds an interesting and distinctive look to my paintings, some of which are purposefully ambiguous, enabling the viewer to use their own interpretation of my artwork. I also love to hide images, and humour within my paintings, whether it’s a secret message, or an erotic couple hidden within a landscape, or even an erotic landscape where the couple are camouflaged as the features of the land itself. I am equally happy painting in oils, acrylics or watercolours and love to draw with pencil or ink. I have also developed the very effective method of drawing using white pencil on black card which creates dramatic pictures by just picking out where the light catches the body and leaving the rest of the image to the imagination, in darkness. I can also utilise many different styles, whether it is realistic, abstract, surrealistic, erotic, fantasy or camouflage art where something is hidden within the painting. I'm just passionate about my art, whatever I paint! But, it doesn't matter how many landscapes or pet portraits I paint, its always the erotic stuff that people are interested in! I started blogging to share some of the strange conversations I have with the people I meet. But its evolved into far more than that now.

Comments (6)

  1. Trixie
    Feb 11, 2009

    Ahhhhh….the beauty of doing it twice! I’m sure she’ll be even MORE loved in her new home.

  2. nitebyrd
    Feb 11, 2009

    Just know she’ll have a good and loving home. (Just like Chloe!)

    She is one of your most beautiful paintings, Jackie.

  3. Jackie Adshead
    Feb 11, 2009

    Trixie – I hope so, but I love her very much either way!!!

  4. Jackie Adshead
    Feb 11, 2009

    Nitebyrd – Yes, I know “Chloe” is in a good home!

    Thankyou, I think so too.

  5. Spiky Zora Jones
    Feb 11, 2009

    Oh to be loved as you love her.

    wonderful…and she hangs on the wall and she is cherished there. She waits for you to wake in the morning to welcome her to the new day. There she will show herself to you…everyday, every glance…you see her differently.

    She is truly alive. 😀

    Ciao honey

  6. Jackie Adshead
    Feb 12, 2009

    Spiky – yes, I love her! And yes, she’s truly alive.

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